This is our third christmas without you and each one reminds me of the huge void you have left.We have a bright star on the tree and I tell your little boy that it's daddy's star, which brings a smile to his face. But I still can't figure out why life can be so cruel, you are needed here so much and shouldn't be in the form of a star. People say time is a great healer and sometimes it doesn't hurt as much, but the times of pain are still there. Like when I look at Jensen and think about how much he is missing out of you not being here and never got the chance to know you as well as we all did. This was the first christmas we have stayed at home without you and one of the hardest things I have had to do. You was a very big part of christmas for everyone but we got through it, just like we will everything else, What choice do we have? I hope to god that where ever you are , you are ok and happy and that there is a good reason for you being snatched away from us baby. Happy Christmas Precious where ever you are , our love will never fade for you, it is in a very safe place. xxx